5 years ago, I gave birth the my first born Kalilah Maria. I will never forget how much pain and stress I was going through being in labor with here for 30 hours! Not only was I scared of my future but so was my husband (boyfriend at the time.) I’m not going to lie, I was scared shit less. I had just turned 20 & my boyfriend was 18…rape I know ;p. “Will he stick around? Will we be happy? What’s our future from here? How am I going to provide for her? Will i be a great mom?” Those were the thoughts that were going through my mind..
Once I laid my eyes on her, i knew what I had to do as a mother. All i wanted and still want to do for her is just to give her a better life than what I grew up with. And so far, I’d say we’re doing a pretty damn good job at it. Who ever knew that getting pregnant was actually a good thing? Kalilah was our strength.. we grew up fast. It was hard.. but it’s definitely worth it. She’s inspired me to do better with my life..& I’m so grateful for that.
Kalilah is such a smart little girl. She still looks like she’s 3 though lol. nothing grew on her but her hair.. I can still remember when she was crawling around the house all toothless and everything. I really miss when she was a baby.. but I also love this age. She just loves dancing and singing everywhere.
We really didn’t do anything big for her birthday but birthday/go-away lunch with some of our friends here in Kentucky. Tee, my friend, brought a cake for her.. which by the way… was delicious. We hung out with one her best friends her Jaden & Avery and had some left of cake with them. After that, we just went home and chilled out.. I plan on just celebrating her birthday with my family at home.. nothing better than spending important days with family and not blowing money. That’s all that really count.